SHREDDED TEARS

couldnt even see
myself do it
just the sound brought my
heart to tears
knowing how much
i love you
and yet i gotta
let go knowing
you already forgot about me
just the site of you
makes me look to
the ground in sadness
but i know i cant
i know we will never be
what we had is gone
life sucks having no sense
of direction
not being able to be next to
you
so you can feel my heart
race
still dreaming of you
still thinking of you
now its time for it to end
i know now how u see me
so easily telling me to move
forward
as if you
never cared
as if what we felt
never exsisted

going through my mind

looking at this blank sheet of paper
wondering what to write
only a month away
what can i say
i accomplished nothing

havent gone out

havent seen anyone

what a vacation

what a summer

what can i say

my life is boring

i have no excitement

why go do something crazy

when i can be home and stay safe

whata life

what excitement

life as a child

the mind of a child

expanding

growing

not sure of

right or wrong

only exploring the world before them

having a sense of inocence

gods creation

learning

smiling from joy

and laughter

each growing in their own way

life itself

living life
not worrying about disasters
not argueing over silly things
that is the way to live
but you can only live so much
on your own
eventually time calls for that
happiness
for that tie to your suit
the peanut butter to your jelly
the butterflies you
get in your stomach
but finding them means
taking a risk
and taking a risk means pain
but what is pain
there is no risk without
the pain

cloudy days

darkness comes
bringing rain on my sunshine
my umbrela needs its space
so it left me
drenched as the rain
plays its song
people watch and
hear me speak
i am now called a fool

i am also called a

fighter
but which am i?
am i a fool
that is willing to fight?
i am neither
i am simply listening to my heart

cause it knows what

it wants

values of life

no holding back
gotta reach my potential
making a living

standing on my own two feet

fulfilling my goals

all the way

nothing standing in my way

cant give up

wont give up

willing to do anything

to get the job done

its what keeps me going

eat right

play nice

not losing my temper for no one

living my life not someone elses

controling my situations

what can i say

itsthe way to be

being a gentleman

thats the way to go

more work gets done

faster

easier

what can i say

its the way to be

olivia woods

its been to long
almost 3 years
being a Ta for you was a blast
first time i laid eyes on you
said to myself
...damm shes someone special
glad to have you in my life
hope to see your beautiful face
again soon