as a brother

ive showed you
signs of affection
yet you deny them
you look beyond
whats in front
of you
what am i supposed
to do
im done waiting
for you
immoving on
your waisting my
time
ive got to find that
girl who makes me happy
when i need it most
its time for me to
say goodbye and
leave you behind
but ill always be
hereas yourfriend
as a brother dont forget
i love you

closed heart

are you the girl
for me
the one ive been
looking for
you give me butterflys
that weaken my knees
i feel ready to fall
dont know if youwill catch me
so im holding myself
up how does it feel
to know i found
you
ive locked my
heart only for
you to see
and to touch
i give you my key
to hold in that pouch
till you are ready
to walk into my heart

screeming help

you dont know me
you used to be fun
then he came along
everything changed
why cant things
go back to the way
they were
i used to enjoy coming home
now all i wanna do is run away
you cant control me anymore
im done being afraid
you cant tell me who i can and cant date
you cant tell me when i can date
you cant tell me anything
all i wanna dois leave
but all i can do is stay
your making me suffer
i dnt understand
you arent you now a days
are you stillthe fun person i used to hang out with
have you become the dictator you were destined to be
its because of you i am who i am
dont you understand
im the greatest guy on school campus
arent you proud of me
no, your not cause thats not enough for you
nothing is ever enough for you
i dont understand
what do i have to do to make you proud of me
i hate keeping things from you
i hate not telling you things
i want thatto change
but its sohard
you dont kow how to listen
you cant take things calmly
you over react with everything you hear
your hardly everhome and when you are
you look for and notice the little things
things i did wrong
things i didnt do
things you wanted me to do
then we fight
then we yell
then i cry
i dont want to cry
you dont care that i cry
all you care bout is my grades and chores
you have to understand there are better things in life
i know what i am doing
i know how to handle things
you on the other hand dont
what can i say
am i better than you
i think not but youmake it look thatway
its hard to hold back tears knowing
you mad
angry
disappointed
yet you want me to held them back
you make me feel like shit
you make me wanna say "fuck you"
thats not right
i shouldnt feelthat way
not to anyone
especially torwards you
what can i do
how can i change that'if i change
will you change
or will you stay the same
causing hell hell on my life
i cant take it anymore
i try hard to make your day better
but you dont even try to listen
what do i do
what do i say
i have lost faith in you
in what you taught me
in what is right and wrong
but i cant be
ihave practiced them for to long
its my routine
its how i was made
its how youmade me
yet i still cant satisfy you
now its just empty blackness
its just...
hard times taking a down fall
forever
hope is whats trying tto get me back up
its whats making me go forward and
stand up for myself

controlled by strings

ive lost the way to
think
my hands are tied
my legs are gone
cant say a word
to anyone
ive lost the light and
now im condemmed by darkness
the one thing that kept me going
is now gone
all i can do is dangle from my
strings of slavery to be controlled
with no word or emotion
not knowing when ill break free
hoping one will come and rescue me

hiding behind the doors

walking through
the halls
making sure no one
sees the true me
through the mask im
showing
just wanting to pass by
no talk
nolaughs
the person inside me
trys to claw himself out
breaking down every door

wanting what i cant have

all i want is
to be successful
to hold you in my arms
to protect and provide
for you
my love
the one and only
no one can live up to your standards
you are my queen
you are my all

running thoughts

i sit in my seat
thinking bout
the dae we met
the day we kissed
the day i held you
in my arms last
i miss you everyday
wondering when i get
to see you again